My mind is always looking for an excuse to call it quits. Always searching for a reason to shut it down and call it a day. You have pain in your heel, stop your workout. Your elbow is sore, don’t workout today. That darn knee of yours is stiff and aching again, better not go for your walk. My mind is a sneaky, backstabbing jerk, if I’m being honest. Constantly looking for the easy path, the lesser of two options, the simple way through.
Yet, at the same time, my mind is also motivating me. Right now, my mind is pushing me and brushing aside the negativity and excuses. I have been going to the gym five days a week, for over a month now, and I am all on board.
Hopefully I am not jinxing myself with that comment. Many a time I have fallen and it took too long to get back up. I am not promising this time will be any different. Though that is part of the reason I am writing about it. Accountability can go a long way.
The really cool thing is, I can actually see differences in my body. Small differences, but differences none the less. My belly is shrinking, which is where I seem to have 90% of my excess fat stored. I can fit in 2xl shirts now instead of the 3 and 4xl from before. And trust me, that is a HUGE mental relief. There are days where I would workout or go for a long walk or get a good sweat going and then I would catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, see that belly sticking out, and just be crushed. All the momentum is gone.
It is November 7th, 2025. I woke up at 5am, went to the gym, came home and went to work. I feel good, I feel motivated, I feel hopeful. That’s a win for the day. Hopefully tomorrow I continue that streak of wins.
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