It has to be a Midlife Crisis that is the underlying driving force of this change. I have been trying for years, basically my entire adult life, to get healthy and in shape. I have had some successes and many more failures. There have been moments where I felt I was at rock bottom in my health journey, that I was eating and slothing myself to death. One would think those moments would have pushed me to change but they didn’t. So why now? While I would love to live to be 100 and beyond, the odds of that are slim. Which would mean I have lived more than half my life already and everything is just downhill from here. I am, dare I say, “over-the-hill”. So this must be some midlife crisis clearing my mind and allowing me to focus forward to when I am 50-years old.
What is a midlife crisis?
I always thought a midlife crisis was more dramatic than this. More chaotic. Yet I am more clear and focused now, than I have been in a long time. Maybe it is not a midlife crisis but a constructive excuse my brain needed to get the rest of me moving. I needed a horizon to focus on. And focus on it I am. With all my might. I made it to the gym twenty-one times in October. Seven hundred and sixty three minutes of working out. I have found myself wanting to go twice in a day and that has never happened before. Not even close. If this is over-the-hill then bring it on. Bring on 50-years old. And if this is a midlife crisis, thank you.
No, I am not counting my chickens before they hatch. This is not a victory lap, one month in. I have been through weight loss and strength training before. Each time I eventually stumbled. I have a clear mind about what could or could not happen on this journey. There will be mistakes made and I could become frustrated, unfocused, unmotivated. Maybe this journal of my journey can be a way to get back on track if I do fall. Or an arrow to keep me pointing in the right direction. Who knows? But for today, I am excited and inspired to better myself. That’s about as cool as it can get.
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